Wow, came across a really jaw-dropping article earlier today. A Canadian friend of mine pointed it out to me.

PC deputy leader to gays: 'Shut up'

I'm mainly in awe because I've never really seen any major member of a political party speak in such a way. They're usually restrained to political correctness to get their points across. It's amazing that this woman actually decided to speak her mind about the homosexual lifestyle being shoved in her face, and being told that it's a normal thing.

I share a lot of what she believes in this case, but the same goes for people who aren't gay. I don't need to see you getting married. I don't fucking CARE. I don't care to see men and women kissing each other on park benches in public, or wherever else they do it, too. Sure, in a remote place where no one goes is fine... But when anyone, homosexual or not, does it in an open place with kids and other people around - it's overbearing and fucking annoying.

If I want to watch people making out and feeling each other up, I'll go order the Playboy channel for the night.

Until then, keep the crap out of my face... thanks.

There isn't much to update here... Isn't much happening in my life lately. I suppose that would be why no one is really commenting that much anymore. Ah well, that's fine. This site isn't just for people to comment and visit... it's just an outlet for me to write things I want to write.

Speaking of which, took both dogs down to the ocean again today. It's always a peaceful walk... Seeing the ocean, feeling the wind toss my hair around, and wondering about life itself and the meaning behind it all. There's so much to this place that you'd just have to experience before you could say anything... There's so much more to it than pictures could ever show.

Unfortunately, there's very few of you who would ever actually get the chance to come here. I wish my best friend could come... I'd pay her way and help her get a job and housing down here if we could see one another again.

Too bad she's halfway across the world...

Damn.

Well, I just got back. If you want to see pictures of where I went to, visit this thread and you'll see a good deal of images I took.

Another one of those times before passing out that I end up writing nothing but what I feel...

It came to me today, before getting ready to leave. I thought about it, and couldn't figure it out... I can see what I need to do. I can see what others are capable of in doing 3D artistry like what I do with level design, yet they're so much better at it. I cannot comprehend how much time and effort it must take to create a model that looks amazing compared to the levels that I create from my own visions, at times... It makes no sense. I know I'm capable of doing more. I know I *can* do more... yet I'm not. Like an invisible ceiling of pain that prevents me from excelling like I want to. I cannot put thought to creation, and imagination to initiative... Only recently have I actually broken though the ceiling and started doing more complex work with the levels I do.

Of course, people say, "It's just a game! They're just 3D levels. They all disappear when the computer is turned off." What's the difference between computer gaming levels and the lives of a person in the real world? What happens if you die? You just fade out of existence, just like the game levels that I create do when the computer is turned off. We're just as fragile as the levels are, so why are they any less important than what happens in reality? Of course, human life is important in its own way, but I'm sure most of you understood the point I was trying to make.

Well... This is the last post I'll make this morning. It's 5:02, I need to get up in about three or four hours, and I'm going to feel like hell tomorrow after getting such little in the way of sleep.

If you would be so kind as to comment while I'm away... I'd appreciate it. Don't spam it. I can easily remove everything you spam in a single click of the mouse.

I'm headed out tomorrow morning. Taking off until late Wednesday to Biloxi, Mississippi. I plan on hitting the beach, taking care of some business, hit the stores and drop by the casinos. :-)

I also plan on bringing my digital camera with me, so I'll get some pictures and show them here if they're any good.

Be back in a couple of days.

Listening to Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd.

Did pretty well today. Nothing much going on, nothing much to take care of, just sit around and relax for a while... A good change of pace.

It's 2:10 AM right now. Pitch black outside except for the few lights on the bay, and the sodium-orange light outside my window in the church parking lot... Getting ready to leave in a few days over to Biloxi, Mississippi. I'll have some more time to relax then, spend some time on the beaches and just let my troubles fade away.