Well, figured I'd do some more updates to this blog... Added a "mood indicator" so you always have an idea of what I'm feeling like during the day. (Once again, thanks to sailoreagle for this.)

Cleaned up some fucked up code in the template, and that's about it for now.

Headed to sleep... Tired, got stuff to do tomorrow.

Listening to Time from Pink Floyd.

Ahh, today isn't bad at all... I keep saying that, why? Because it isn't bad. Obvious enough, eh.

I'm getting ready to go to sleep. I've got a lot of shit to take care of tomorrow that I *really don't want to do,* like clean out my storage cell in Bluewater Bay and get rid of the accumulated junk inside of it. Joy, this'll take forever to do.

So I'll be gone most of tomorrow if I don't get done quick.It shouldn't be *too difficult* to get this done with, or so I hope. I hate menial labor... Very much so.

3:43 here, time to get some rest, finally.

"Fly high and proud, and if you ever fall, remember that you almost had it all..."

Sailoreagle always has excellent quotes.

Feeling pretty good today. Got constantly nagged by people, but other than that, it was pretty cool.

Just got out of the hot tub. Didn't get sick this time, either. :-) Spent about an hour in the water, just relaxing and letting the water jets massage my body. I get way too tense and that helps relieve the tension in my muscles.

Gotta start taking things in stride now... It'll all be for the best eventually. I've got work to do, more updates later.

I wonder... What is it you do when you feel like you're unable to do anything at all? I can't figure it out, so perhaps someone reading this could offer me some insight.

Lately I'm wondering what point there is to just speaking to anyone. People who know me, e.g. family, have little to say other than "You never do anything with us."

Of course I never do anything with them... I barely know my family to begin with. I don't like having little kids shoved in my face, being expected to tell them that I love them without even knowing them. Are all families this false? Seriously...

I've been increasingly feeling like it would be best for me to shut myself off from the world. I've advised others against that, but I'm a hypocrite at times, and am rapidly coming to the point of where speaking with people is leaving me drained and annoyed. If I cannot even hold a conversation with someone without them trying to pry into my past, with unwarranted comments, what's the point of speaking to anyone?

I'm utterly sick of it. I would rather just deal with myself, than deal with a load of people who think they know me and really know nothing at all. That could be attributed to my own actions, but they had already made their minds up beforehand.

Anyone know what I should do? There's only a few good friendships I have, and only one best friend... I'd never stop talking to her regardless of what happens. We're too alike, you could say... Like understanding each other without really having to say too much, because you already know what the other will say.

Regardless... I'd still like to know. Perhaps my life would be a lot easier if I only worried about those I really care about; let the others just do their own thing.

Haven't written anything for a bit, suppose there isn't much to write again lately.

Sitting around most of today, taking care of yardwork. Had to wash my Lumina, too... Need to get that thing a new paint job, it's getting too dull.

Damned cat is in heat. All I hear from her, every night, is constantly meowing. I put her in the office for a while so I can hear something else for a change. Hopefully she'll get out of heat, then I can get her spayed at the local animal hospital.

Not getting much sleep because of her, either.

Bah.

Well, while participating on a certain forum, I found my beliefs under attack concerning the aforementioned article... Which is funny, because I said they'd to that. Liberals, gotta love them... Attack what disagrees with you, blow smoke up the ass of what does agree with you. :-)

I found out something disturbing. Went into the hot-tub the other night, found the water extremely hot, around a temperature of 110 degrees. I sat in it for about a half-hour, and subsequently found myself becoming extremely dizzy. The water also smelled of mildew. So I stumble into the house, sit down for a while... three hours later, I'm still feeling the nausea.

Go out the next day, look at it... Fucking water is translucent GREEN. Not emerald green, like the ocean water looks like, but green as in algae.

I spent about 15 minutes, with a sore throat and a headache from whatever the bacteria did to my system, bucketing out the water from the hot-tub. Each bucket-load is 60 pounds, and there's about 250 bucket-loads of water in the hot-tub. As you can imagine, it was a bit tiring.

Putting fresh water back into it tomorrow... Going to shock it with chlorine, then put the chlorine floater into it again.

I hate bacteria. I hate fungi too. Fuckers ate up my King's Hawaiian bread I was going to use for my dinner last night.