Because I have found that all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away, again...

Sometimes I hate my life. Other times, I don't.

This isn't one of those times where I'm particularly happy with it.

I find the sky to be the most comforting thing I've encountered for the past week, since I've been working way out in the woods... In Freeport, 24 miles east of me.

While working, it's hard for me to concentrate. I have so many emotions bubbling through. Sorrow, love, sadness, hope, gloom, happiness, it's like I'm a large melting pot.

Staring at the sky helps. As if it shows me what I want to see. The ability to view forever.

"Come with me - we can sail to infinity..."

I discovered something today, something both good and bad.

While I'm a bit unhappy over it, I'm still happy... Whatever sense that may make. Someone I cared for cares for someone else, the usual routine, right? This time it doesn't really hurt at all, just comes as part of who I am and what my purpose here is.

It goes to show that who I'm looking for is still out there, and I'll find her someday in my lifetime.

Remembering how she used to be, yes, it's worth the wait... Even if I meet her the day before I die, as an old man.

Look up to the sky
You can't grab it
It's just too high
Reach out, touch the rain
It takes away all
All the pain

For some reason, I just feel like writing poetry now. I haven't done it for a while...

Outside the window
Concrete shines
Rain is falling
It helps pass the time...
You're still gone
Yet the memory is strong
But there's nothing I can do
Except wait for the day
The day I'll be with you
On and on
The rain will fall
Like tears from a star

Skies above, that's what they are
Neither friendly, nor foe, but both
They bring happiness, sorrow, wealth, poverty, life, and death
While you see, you still don't know
So the air speaks of all we'll never be
Memories lost from afar

Funny how someone would mention that my personality matches Makoto's by, almost, perfection.

I'm a lot like her, in a way. I guess this is how I grew to be after years upon years, things I endured and hopes I lost.

Is it bad? I don't know. I just know that I am, who I am, and nothing more. If I were meant to be someone else, I would be.

I used to stand alone. I still do, in a sense... It's nice to have people who care about me... Especially since I've known them for as long as I can remember.

Still, I feel alone.

Maybe because I am.

Friend of mine's blog had this test on it... I used to watch the Sailor Moon show until it stopped running. I'm not at all surprised by the result of my quiz, either...


You are Sailor Jupiter!
You're tall, you're bad,
you're tough...or are you? We're not denying
that you can kick some serious butt, but really
deep down, all you want to do is make cookies
and watch the flowers grow. You may even have
the potential to be a real party person! You
probably are known to be calm one minute, but
ready to pound someone's face in the next.
People may be a little intimated by you, but
they really shouldn't. If not for your rep, you
would make more friends quickly. You probably
enjoy the finer foods in life. You also
probably have had lots of past relationships
with others, which you may occassionally bring
up. Your friends probably don't wish to hear
this. You can be a little old fashioned about a
few things, but you really are a modern type
person. You are quick to grasp what's happening
in a problem, but no one really ever
congradulates your ability to do this. You
probably regularly drink tea, or tried to. You
aren't really one to try and get a lot of
attention...except from a significant other.
However, the most suprising people look past
your outer shell and are attracted to your
side. You have a tendency to have a large
fanbase also. Even if one of your attacks look
like an attack by Bulbasaur via Pokemon.


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