I finally reset my sleeping schedule today... At least, I think I did. Slept for about 12 hours after being awake for over 36 hours.

Though, a byproduct of that is being a bit more irritated at stupid things... And stupid people. Been finding a lot of those today... Grr.

Sadly, the rain passed by today. Turned out to be a huge cold front that was moving through.

This begs the question; what the fuck is a cold front doing coming through Florida in late May? It's nearly summer, and we *still* have cold fronts incoming. So long as it staves off the inevitable summer heat and humidity, I'm happy with it. :-)

I woke up earlier than usual while the rain was still pouring... Went to sleep, it was raining, wake up, it's raining. Look outside the window - it's flooding outside. I can see a near river of water headed down my yard. I'm surprised the house itself didn't flood... The river was pretty cool while it lasted, though. It cut a deep gorge, so to speak, into the dirt driveway in the front yard... It also deposited a good deal of sand on the back porch... Gotta sweep that off when the moisture leaves the dirt.

It/s raining again outside. It's been doing it most of the night... I'm glad too, I love rain. We haven't had enough of it lately.

The skies outside are just pure grey, like ceiling covered with grey silk, smooth as can be... I can see raindrops on the window from the wind tossing the drops of rain on it...

Once again, it's time for me to get to bed. Wonder what I'll dream of tonight...

Such a nice night... Morning, anyhow. Pitch black outside...Feeling better today. Finding out things I wanted to see, which in turn are helping my mood get better... I'm sure she knows what I mean.

I have to cover in StarChat's #starchat help room for about 60 minutes... Sounds like fun in a sense, maybe not; depending on if I get people who want to be annoying again... heh

I'm going to head off to sleep soon. I wonder if some things I had wished for will come true someday...

It's been storming most of the day... Huge thunderstorms came in through my area and left a lot of water behind because of flash-flooding.

Fortunately, I'm fine, and most others around here are as well. It's still thundering and sparking lightning in the distance... Another surreal moment, you could say.

It brings me to wonder again - what happens when people you think you care about are so immersed in other things that they just don't notice you? Granted, caring for people means you shouldn't worry if they care in return... Care and love is a gift, and it shouldn't be required to be returned in kind. It still makes me wonder though... Maybe they're so focused on other things that they can't see anything else, or notice anyone else... Maybe they're so wrapped up in depression that they can't understand the concept of others caring for them that do it of their own free will and are not bound by past relations... Just what they want to give to others.

I honestly don't know. I probably won't ever know at this rate. I just understand one thing, it's going to leave me depressed and I'm going to have to hide it for their sake. After all, they're more important than I am... I've never found much self-worth in much of anything, regardless of what I do. Just chalk this up to another experience.

I think I'll ask God tonight why I'm even here... why I even bother living, what purpose I serve. He obviously knows more than I, or anyone else, does...